i'm kind of afraid to look at my old blog. it has made me cringe whenever i've dared to delve into the darkened depths (heh, alliteration) of my prepubescent psyche and read the irrelevant garbage i thought was important at the time. in fact, i don't know if i really want to start another blog because i'm not sure how i feel about being in so many places. over the years i have accumulated several real, tangible journals and a number of online profiles, many of which have been abandoned or neglected. actually, i have two tumblrs i maintain; one for senseless reblogging and sharing my art, and another for screaming into the void that is the internet when you don't tag anything. i figure i'll delete that second one as soon as i get this thing going, and hopefully not many people will see it.

but here's the thing: i have a weird obsession sort of deal with consistency, and by that i mean keeping my thoughts in one place. i don't even know if consistency is the right word here. but basically what i am trying to say is that as much as i want to start a blog again, like a real one where i can say what i want and don't have to appease a couple hundred followers by plastering fanart and fandom-related nonsense all over their dashboards, i'm scared of leaving my real-life journal to decay in a corner or a dresser drawer while i relate all of my personal dealings on this page. so while i will be posting my thoughts here, i will also try to keep it businesslike so i know what goes in my journal, what goes on my personal blog, and what goes on my tumblr.

i hope this works.

(i hope i don't look at this in a couple minutes and regret it.)

so maybe i'll copy what i've already put on my second tumblr and paste it here for the sake of adding more content and also not erasing my thought processes.